Musings of a Singaporean Crossdresser: Who is Isabelle?

Who is Isabelle?

About 99% of the time, I'm just your regular married Singaporean guy, with the usual desires, tastes, hobbies, dress sense, etc. I went through 2 years of NS, when I get hangry I demand carbs/meats, and flip flops + tshirts + pair of shorts are my go to outfits when out and about.

But 1% of the time, Isabelle takes over. Usually a figment of my imagination, she slips into my daily thoughts and tug at my emotions until my guy self gives in, allowing her to manifest in reality.

Like two sides of the same coin, Isabelle and I are inseparably the same person, yet we are so very different. She is very feminine, contrary to my usual uncle self. She is a princess and always dresses to the nines, regardless of the occasion, unlike my usual casual styles. She is self-absorbed and narcissistic, taking photo after photo of herself and spending too much time on social media. She is demanding of material satisfaction in the form of pretty outfits and new thrilling experiences. She is cute, innocent and sweet at times, but an elegant, gorgeously seductive creature the next. And honestly, I love being her.

If we are to use labels, then I used to identify as a "crossdresser", comfortable with my male self, yet extremely drawn to being feminine. Recently I've finally admitted to be being "Transgender" and taken steps to make Isabelle a more permanent reality. Although I am not unique in my experience, I do wish to share my journey of discovery, especially with the lack of content in the Singaporean context. My blog is an attempt to detail my journey through life with the inner woman, experiences with gender dysphoria and personal thoughts, primarily as catharsis, but also in hope that it may prove useful to other Singaporean guys in the exploratory stages of their inner feminine self.

So fellow reader, thanks for visiting my blog and do leave me some comments as you read about my journey☺

Part 1 - Younger Days

Part 2 - Teenage Years

Part 2.5 - Fanciful Imaginations

Part 3 - University Days

Part 4 - Work Life and Marriage

Part 5 - Coming out to my Wife

Part 6 - My first time in public as a girl

Part 7 - Shopping as a girl

Part 8 - CD Gatherings

Part 9 - Having a baby

Part 10 - Boy who became a bride